Rundown of 2015 | Diary

2015
So this year has been a few ups and downs for me during 2015. There have been really difficult times and then there was times when I was reassured and glad that everything was okay in the end .

I'm going to tell you my rundown of events that happened over the past year, there will be great events and there will be a bad and sad events.

Friendship Disaster 
Now friendship problems are a common thing that happen throughout the teenage life and it happens sometimes out of the blue and then you can also expect it.

So, back at the end of 2014 I left my usual friendship group because of someone and what they did in the past. And then I told a bunch of lies when I had to talk to them online and clear things up. When I do however have a problem of explaining something to someone I get that jittery feeling and start to panic, this happens when there is text and it's something negative or could possibly be about me. Then end up telling lies and not be honest because I would want to keep my friendship and it will end up horribly. It has always been my mistake and I can never fix it. So then I have minus a friend who may think I am a terrible person. Do not panic, and if you do take a moment to breath and then start typing your explanation and thoughts and everything will fly out like a butterfly.But hopefully someday it will be resolved and I have been contemplating about it throughout this year, even though it's something about the year before, it still has been a struggle to find my way to apologising.

Moving Out
One of my siblings have moved out back in July and it was a tough choice for my parent because she didn't want to waste money where you can just live at the family house. Since then my Mum has been rambling on and on about how my sister was indecisive about the moving out case. Yes it is tough to move away from parents because they would always think of you as their little baby and always stick by them, but then you have to let them be free and do their own thing because they are older and they need to take responsibility for themselves. So it was an absolute nightmare hearing my Mum ramble on 24/7 and there is going to be a continuation in 2016 probably. Awesome!; Not.

Discovering YouTubers
Back then I wasn't a fan of YouTubers and I never really watched and any YouTube at all. But in April I discovered Zoella. I knew a teeny tiny amount about her from magazines, but that was all. I started watching her and then overtime  I discovered more YouTubers and now there is a list of a lot of YouTubers in my Subscriptions. My brother makes fun of me because of it. This could sound cheesy, but without all these YouTubers I'm watching now, I would be in a total mess. I have learnt a lot about them. It's not all about Gaming, Beauty or challenges. You can learn something from them and an example is a tweet "Do more of what makes you happy" by PointlessBlog. Thanks I need that to motivate me everyday.

Overall 2015 was a bumpy year and that is going to happen in life and I have to get over it.
New Year's Resolution: Be more happy and develop confidence.

Sayonara
HazzaMazza~

Anime & Manga | Thoughts

Favourite Anime & Manga so far:
Fairy Tail
Sword Art Online
Vampire Knight
Clannad

Those are my favourites so far.

I don't know why, but I just feel like talking about anime and manga since it is my favourite thing to do whenever I feel down, when I'm bored, need something to watch before going to bed or just normally watch it as I am on the web.

I just wish all the Anime lovers (known as otaku's) could just join together as one and all be friends. I certainly do wish to have that in my school, want more friends who share the same passion as me (not to get rid of the old ones of course), just why isn't there an anime club?.

5 things you should do whilst getting prepared to watch/watching Anime
1) Make yourself a nice cup of tea (or whatever drink you would like), and also grab some snacks while you're at it.
2) Get yourself a box of tissues for when you need to cry. Don't want to have a stream of them (Only used for a sad anime). Or if your eyes are like a tap-like me then use them in happy moments.
3) Any non-otaku's should not be allowed to come into room and disturb your precious anime time.
4) If you are on your down days, watch something that makes you feel more comfortable and what makes you laugh. It works on some people.
5) On a cold, dreary day sit down in your cosy socks, warm jumpers with your device and watch away!

Sayonara
HazzaMazza~

Girl Online On Tour | Zoe Sugg

Girl Online On Tour

Since I already probably told you about Zoella, so I'm just gonna go straight in to the what's it about?

Penny's Bags Are Packed

When Noah invites Penny on his European music tour, she can't wait to spend time with her rock-god-tastic boyfriend. But, between Noah's jam-packed schedule, less-than welcoming band mates and threatening messages from jealous fans, Penny wonders whether she's really cut out for life on tour. She can't help but miss her family, her best friend Elliot... and her blog, Girl Online.

Can Penny learn to balance life and love on the road, or will she lose everything in pursuit of the perfect summer?

Why I love it?

Since I loved Girl Online, why wouldn't I love the second book? It was quite an emotional ride. Apparently if you listen to music that fits well into the sign i.e listening to a deep and sad song in one of the scenes you'll end up almost crying (or is it just me?)

What I should of said in my previous Blog post of the review of the first book is that I love how Penny goes to New York and share some description of the place and the landmark itself. Everyone is just in New York now like the Sacconejolys, Joe Sugg, like wow!

Anyways I love how Zoe inputs like different kinds of things in each city to feel like a tourist attraction, so awesome! Love how she does her own research on Elliot the character too, the Wikipedia.

I love how all the characters have learnt to support and forgive one another and pick each other back up when they are down. And not everyone can turn out the way they thought they would be. Wish I can share some parts with you, but I can't. Unless I wanted to, but not gonna spoil anything.

This isn't really a good review because I'm not very great at reviewing at all, this is just an explanation on why I love it I guess.

Rating

For both books, it's definitely getting a 10/10!

YouTubers | Thoughts

Why I am writing this Blog?
Well since I love YouTube and the people I subscribe to I love their content and the person themselves. I just felt like wanting to share with you all about my favourite YouTubers, and talk about them. Many of them I am going to talk about you will know and love. Enjoy!
In addition to what I said I haven't been watching YouTube for too long, only for 4 months and a few days, so I may not know my info. But I've watched many throwbacks of different YouTubers (A LOOOT!) YouTube is my replacement of TV to be honest and why did I not do this sooner...

Zoe Sugg (Zoella)
I love her as a person and a Youtuber one of the main reasons is because she gives us happiness and whenever we are in a down right mood she always is the one to cheer us up with her videos. I see that everywhere in the comments of her videos and I also agree.

She gives us so many things like her new product range, her Christmas range and her new Girl Online On Tour book release, and what do we do in return? We give her these many possibilities and opportunities that she can fulfill because of us: supporting her, watching her every Sunday and tweeting her many things and subscribing to her as a whole.

I love how she is a such a sweet person and she encourages me to get back up whenever you fall hard. There's so many more that I can say about her, but I need to stop rambling :P

Alfie Deyes (PointlessBlog)
Well I fricking love Alfie's Twitter because he is filled with quotes that are awfully true. Now I know that quotes sounds like a cringy thing, but honestly I love them and they just descrive life in this generation and just life in general to be honest.

But that's not the only reason why I like him, he is filled with spirit, and gives us inspiration to stuff like not to give up and 'Do more of what makes you happy'. Which is true.

I love his Daily Vlogging and nothing beats to a good old Vlog when I am down (which is probably every day).

And there are many other YouTubers I love such as: ThatcherJoe, Jim Chapman, Tanya Burr, Oli White, Jacksepticeye, Marcus Butler, Tyler Oakley, the list can go on and on. But I love them all equally.

Who's your favourite YouTuber?

Family Issues | Lifestyle

Family Issues
You know when you get those families who excessively argue and argue? Well I got me one of those. My Mum and Dad argue sometimes, even my Brother and my Mum! Including my sister and my mum before my sister had to move out.

And this would be me, the one who gets fed up of it and would wanna move out myself.

How to survive Family crisis, arguments and issues?
1) Do not get involved if it is a situation that hasn't got anything to do with you. If it is then try to be civil with whoever, and try to persuade the person that this is right and this wrong (I don't do this much, but there are a lot of situations where I just want to scream at my mum and tell her that she is wrong for a particular reason.

2) Put on some good quality headphones and blast out your music- not that loud to make yourself death, but loud enough so the music blocks away what you mum is saying or any other family member.

3) If you're a sensitive like me, then whatever you do, do not cry in front of your family otherwise whoever is angry will be angry at you for acting vulnerable. My crying place is the bathroom because you always have a door that symbolises a barrier to the world, so I just let my emotions out there.

4) If you get angry for the reason of chitter chatter from parents, then get something to relieve the stress. For instance Bubble wrap can help, like popping little heads of someone.

5) Tell your friends about it; but not all your friends, just the ones you are close to and trust. And be careful what you tell, not too much detail, your friends can reassure you and help you relax.

And the main one: Always stay positive no matter what you're going through

Hazza is going to Mazza x

All The Bright Places | Jennifer Niven

Thoughts About the Author
Its a shame that she has only written two books, wish she wrote more in the future. But even though I only read 1/2 of her books, already I fell in love with the author (not literally), but author loving wise. She is one of my inspirations for the mini book I am doing and thanks to her, I have a bundle of ideas more than before.

Jennifer structures and puts the story together to make an amazing piece. And I like it for that.

About All The Bright Places
They meet on top of the school's bell tower and so their story begins. It's only together they can be themselves. But as Violet's world grows, Finch's begins to shrink. How far will Violet go to save the boy she has come to love.

A book about Mental Illness and how people fight for their lives.
Including some cheeky little romance in there too and development of friendship.

Why I love it?
Well why hate it? There's nothing really to hate about to be honest. The gripping tension between the two characters (not gonna say what happens, all I'm going to say that it id towards the end). One of the main things about it is the development of a friendship-that'll be friendship goals right there! Also the adventures that both of them have. But the one main thing is that there is always a sweet heart within someone even they fit in the crowd and ignore the ones that are below them.

All these adventures makes me wanna go on holiday now! Let the summer come back again!

So much twists and turns; I like it!!

My Rating
I would say a 8.9/10. The only reason for that though is because in the ending there wasn't any need of an extra bit, letting it end there would be fine (anyone who has read it will get it) I know that isn't really an agreeable statement, but it's the truth.
But other than that it is super-duper awesometastic!

Misery

Introduction
 Konnichiwa. In this Blog I am going to be telling you about a condition/ suffering what is called misery. Not a lot of people around me have misery, or they do, but it isn't obvious that they do. It is a rare thing to have as most people are happy.
So if I do please at least someone for this then I would as a person would be happy.


What is misery?
There are  few different ways into define what misery is. One way into saying is that it is a condition where it's caused by great distress or extreme unhappiness or need, privation and poverty. But mainly my definition of it is where you are suffering from extreme unhappiness.
This is a condition that can affect someone's life by not focussing on the world around them and just contemplates what they have done wrong and the flashbacks on what has been going on.

My Own Experience
As I went through Reception and Primary School all the way to the middle of Year 8 the misery I had wasn't that serious, but I still had a case of it. Although my misery stopped around then, towards the end of Year 9 I had it again, but little less than before. The causes of it were my family situations where sometimes my siblings would argue with my mum or my Dad will argue with my Mum. And then it sort of led on to having flashbacks in my head of having all the good times back when I was really young. I would cry every time the arguments got a little bit too serious and got a bit too loud, I would just but my head underneath my blanket covers and secretly cry my eyes out until I could fall asleep and wake up feeling dreadful and sad.

Another way that caused it, it was the people around me, the people in my class, people from different Year groups. The first time I got teased and bullied was in Primary School, where I had that haircut which was ever so short that it went up to my tip of the ears, I ended up getting teased from my friend who I realised that I should not have forgiven him. There are different aspects in the cause of my misery, but I am not going in full detail

What can it have an affect on people?
If someone had misery, and the friend is trying to interact with you and your other group of colleagues or friends, that person may be thinking all of them need to go away. Those group of friends may whisper to each other and talk down about you and underestimate you because you don't want them around. That's what friends are for to just be around you when there are times when you need them, but just not all the time.

What you/others can do to prevent this?
What you can do is that try to think positively about the world, flowers instead of darkness- that was not a good comparison- it can all be based around people who are in your life. The way I stopped it was by having friends that can influence me and make more happier when there are days when I just feel like crap and everything I think has gone wrong, their just full of joy and happiness is contagious.

But the one main thing that made me stop being miserable all the time is the development of my confidence., I feel like if you were a shy person and had a little bit of misery then building on your self-esteem and confidence will help too! Although this may not apply to people, but I guess it can for me, but we are not all associated with each other so people will have different views.

In my secondary school where we had this scheme of 'Vertical Tutoring' where we spend 20 minutes a day with people from different years and do activities. At first I literally hated it, no smiles and I just wanted to be under the table, haha. But my Form Tutor encouraged me to come out of my shell and she was and still is the reason why I have came out of my shell and became a better person and gave me a little more happiness..

So the main thing you would want to do is just come in and smile at everybody who come across your face even when you're having those bad moments. Never pay attention to the negative things that are in your way of the boundaries and live life on.

Thank you for reading, I hope this done good for at least one of you, that alone will make me happy

HazzaMazza